I’ve been troubled by this feeling that I should not receive the Eucharist because of some past mortal sin that I feel that I have committed, a mortal sin that I feel that I have committed a little bit after I went to Confession. But I honestly don’t remember what it was. Right before I received the Eucharist last week, I felt a strong pang of fear telling me not to receive it, for fear of receiving Him in a state of mortal sin, but another part of me told me that it might be just the devil trying to keep me away from receiving Christ’s Body. What should I do? Can I still receive the Eucharist today? Why or why not?
We can’t answer that.
When in doubt, go to confession and then be at peace.
Something I do when I am feeling this way is I read and pray over Psalm 139, particularly on verses 23-24. I tend to find clarity after doing so.
1For the leader. A psalm of David.
LORD, you have probed me, you know me:
2you know when I sit and stand;
you understand my thoughts from afar.
3You sift through my travels and my rest;
with all my ways you are familiar.
4Even before a word is on my tongue,
LORD, you know it all.
5Behind and before you encircle me
and rest your hand upon me.
6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
far too lofty for me to reach.
7Where can I go from your spirit?
From your presence, where can I flee?
8If I ascend to the heavens, you are there;
if I lie down in Sheol, there you are.
9If I take the wings of dawn*
and dwell beyond the sea,*
10Even there your hand guides me,
your right hand holds me fast.
11If I say, “Surely darkness shall hide me,
and night shall be my light”—
12Darkness is not dark for you,
and night shines as the day.
Darkness and light are but one.
13You formed my inmost being;
you knit me in my mother’s womb.
14I praise you, because I am wonderfully made;
wonderful are your works!
My very self you know.
15My bones are not hidden from you,
When I was being made in secret,
fashioned in the depths of the earth.
16Your eyes saw me unformed;
in your book all are written down;
my days were shaped, before one came to be.
17How precious to me are your designs, O God;
how vast the sum of them!
18Were I to count them, they would outnumber the sands;
when I complete them, still you are with me.
19When you would destroy the wicked, O God,
the bloodthirsty depart from me!
20Your foes who conspire a plot against you
are exalted in vain.
21Do I not hate, LORD, those who hate you?
Those who rise against you, do I not loathe?
22With fierce hatred I hate them,
enemies I count as my own.
23Probe me, God, know my heart;
try me, know my thoughts.
24See if there is a wicked path in me;
lead me along an ancient path.*
I love this psalm because after all of the praise, it ends with a plea in 23-24. Lord, search me. Test my heart, test my thoughts. See if there is any wicked in me, bring it to the light of my eyes. Teach me the error of my ways, and lead me along Your most holy path.
I hope it helps you. God love you.
The next time you go to Confession tell the priest and he will put your mind at rest, and if in the future you remember well confess it, its not as if your hiding it on purpose, put your mind at rest.
cant you go to confession before communion today? tell him you feel you may have forgotten to confess one and can’t think of what it is now, do a general confession of any and all mortal sin inclusive…
You should follow the advice that others before me have given you. It is something I learned while being prepared for my first Holy Communion in a Jesuit Parochial School, over 70 years ago: When in doubt, Confess.
The devil can easily play tricks with you mind and psyche. It is easy to kid yourself that it is ok to receive, just because you forgot something.
Don’t take a chance, confess. If you can’t make Confession at the scheduled times in your Parish, go to the rectory and ask to see a priest, or go into the sacristy about 10 or 15 minutes before Mass and ask the priest to hear your Confession before he vests up. Very rarely will a priest turn you down. However, you must do your part and come completely prepared…it might help to write down your sins and their frequency when you examine your conscience. There are many sites on the internet that can help you with this.
Alright, thanks for all of your replies