Hi. I last went to confession on Sunday, but I feel like I’ve sinned badly since then. I want to receive it again this Christmas, but I don’t know if I am worthy…
*]I used the phrase “Oh my God” (and not reverently) several times since Sundays, usually out of frustration at work
*]I was in a very foul mood yesterday, where I had very mean and cynical thoughts about my boss at the place at work
*]I’ve had blasphemous thoughts run through my head every once in a while, and I feel like I sometimes let them stay there for too long
*]I’ve sometimes glanced at attractive young women for far too long, I think.
I recognize the Eucharist is a privilege, not a right, but I really want to start receiving the Eucharist badly. I’ve barely been to communion this year (I can count the number of times on one hand) because I work on Saturdays and that’s when confession is on at the nearby churches. I sometimes feel like I keep plunging myself into mortal sin almost as soon as I exit the confessional. The thought came into my head that I’ll likely almost never receive Communion as long as I live, though I want to, because my thoughts are always extremely dark and I’m too prideful and I keep using the Lord’s name in vain.
Can someone give me some advice?