I am a 41 year old man who has been raised Catholic. I have recently returned to the Church (two months ago) after several years absence. The hypocrisy of sending my children to CCD while not attending Mass myself finally, and thankfully, caught up with me.
I think one of the reasons I left initially, was that going to Mass became a routine. You know… kneel, stand, recite, kneel. I still do not understand each portion of Mass.
I have received my Sacraments but something is missing. For starters, I can recite the Mass without thought but, I don’t fully understand the meanings of each portion of the Mass. I want to get more out of it. I want to put more into it. I was contempletating joining the Men’s Club at church but I am a bit on the shy side. Is there any recommended reading for returning Catholics who are confused. I hope I am not alone in my confusion. I assume I am not the first to feel this way.
Thank you and God Bless.