I’m really looking for a soul and life coach. I don’t think my formation was that good, though religion class was a favorite. If I am meant for the religious life, I would like to know that too, but I don’t know if some sins, or the gravity of which, are in my head, due to scruples, or not. It may be that a religious community could exacerbate the scrupulosity I’m told I have, as one vocation director said, but there would be not the objects of temptation to idleness and I would not have to worry about any loved ones needing correction and if I am the one to do it (but who else will, anymore?). I figured the postulancy is when you see and the community sees, after various talks, if you are a fit and not based on the first phone call. I certainly don’t feel I will continue doing well in the world, at least not without a good spiritual director, but maybe a spiritual director could guess, based on several meetings, how I can succeed spiritually, personally and professionally. I really don’t know anymore.