About 7 years ago, I had an abortion, which still pains me and still leaves me crying at the mere mention of it. I have deeply regretted it from that instant and it still weighs heavily on my heart. After leaving the faith 15 years ago, I want to come back. I have begun attending church again. I have been reading “Catechism of the Catholic Church” as well as reading Catholic literature online to better understand my faith. Just last night I read about how an abortion is a mortal sin and those who commit the sin will face excommunication.
Does that mean that I am not allowed to attend mass? I am scared now to confess my sin because I am in a new parish and don’t know the priest too well and I do not know how to confess or even if I should confess. This is something that I have been carrying secretly for a long time. What makes my situation even more complicated is that I will be starting marriage classes soon to be married in the church. I am so afraid that the priest will tell me that I will not be allowed to marry inside the church.
I now realize the severity of my sin but don’t know how to make it right again.