I really wanna be a Carmelite, but my family thinks its a phase and aren't very supportive. They don't realize how scary it is for me too. I'm afraid to tell them I want to become a Carmelite. They think I'm just discerning, but I'm pretty sure our Lord wants me in the Carmel. On St. Therese's feast day I asked her for a white rose if our lord wanted me in Carmel. She sent me one.
But I'm so afraid what people will think of me. The life is so difficult.