I am glad this was posted because I need advice and prayer. When I was a very young child from the age of 2 to age 6 I believe I was tormented in the night by demons. They would not harm me but scare me. For instance, I have a vivid memory from the time I was 2 when a headless “person” appeared in my room nightly. I was so terrified I could not even scream. One night it came again and I was able to cry out for my mother who came in the room. When she came in and turned on the light I could still see it standing there but she couldn’t. My mom let me sleep with her and the thing pasted the foot of the bed all night but never touched me.
When we moved to a different house it would visit me again but this time in the form of a very creepy looking donkey outside my window. Eventually we moved again when I was 5. In our third home it appeared more terrifying to me in by bedroom as a skeleton. This was the most terrifying. When I was 6 years old my grandmother (who was a devout Catholic and a prayer warrior) took me with her on a 2 month summer vacation to Michigan (we lived in California). During that time I was visited one time by three demons but this time in a dream.
My grandmother suspected there was a spiritual issue so she put a blessed crucifix and a picture of the sacred heart of Jesus in my room and taught me how to pray. I was never tormented like that again. That was in 1966. Fast forward to 1984, I was in the Navy on shore duty. One morning I woke up to get ready for work when I heard a sinister voice in the room which said, “We are going to take you to hell!” As fast as I heard the voice I spoke back and said, “I rebuke you in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ!”
This happened at a time when I was a new evangelical (yet still went to mass). Now fast forward to 2011 to the present. I have become obsessed with demonology, meaning exorcism. I read about cases I have watched every episode of “A Haunting” and every movie about exorcism based on a true story. The thought occurred to me that God might be calling me to this ministry. At first I thought it was great now I am not so sure this is a cross I want to bear.
Let me elaborate, for years I have been praying for the salvation of my family and since 2010 terrible tragedy has come on us. My brother was diagnosed with rectal cancer and although still alive the cancer has metastasized to his lungs. It is a miracle that not only is he still alive but up until a month ago he still worked hard physical labor. Now he is a paraplegic as he is paralyzed from the waist down because the cancer spread to the spine and fractured it.
In 2012 my 22 year old daughter was diagnosed with stage 4 brain cancer and died two months later. Six months after that happened my brother in law was killed in a sand rail accident. Three months after that happened (March 2013) my 16 year old daughter attempted suicide by swallowing 12 anxiety pills. She was found unconscious by her teacher in the bathroom. I also became sick when I contracted a staph infection in a surgical wound and had to take 5 months medical leave. At the same time my sister almost died from pneumonia. Finally my father was diagnosed with bladder cancer (which was treated and is in remission).
When my oldest daughter passed away I had been camped out in her hospital room for 3 weeks. I prayed the rosary and the divine chaplet of mercy over her everyday as well as many hours of private prayer and intersession. My daughter Rebekah, was not Catholic, she was raised in the AOG yet the night before she passed away I was able to get a Catholic priest to administer to her the annointing of the sick, I participated in the sacramental rite as did her best friend (who was also coincidently Catholi). Evangelicals do not believe in baptizing children so they “dedicate them to the Lord” before the whole congregation by laying on of hands (it is much like baptism). So Rebekah was dedicated but not baptized when she was an infant. When I reverted back to being Catholic I baptized her myself on July 5th 1999. She passed away with me holding her hands and praying July 5th 2012.
I believe my family is under attack possibly because dark forces know where God is leading me. It has gotten to the point for me where constant prayer for my family is a very heavy cross to bear. And to make matters more difficult all my family is spread apart on the west coast and I am alone in Virginia. Perhaps God has isolated me for consecration? I am very much drawn to Eucharist Adoration which I often spend hours adoring and praying all for my family and now for the soul of my daughter Rebekah and my brother Dale. So I am asking for advice, your thoughts and your prayers. Thank you.