Hello, some of you have read the thread I created last summer regarding my decision to enter the Catholic Church. For those who are interested, here’s the thread for some background:
I’m enrolled in RCIA, participated in the Rite of Acceptance, and am scheduled to participate in the Rite of Election this coming Sunday. This journey is very difficult for me. I believe the Catholic Church is Christ’s church and have felt pulled to Catholicism for many years and am very happy that I’m on this path. I know God has called me to follow it The trouble is that I’m completely alone and feel very isolated. My wife, in the end, doesn’t understand why I’m doing this and is becoming less supportive. It’s causing some strain in our marriage as the Easter Vigil approaches. Perhaps I was too optimistic in thinking that she would be interested out of a desire to finally have some spiritual unity in our home. But she has zero desire to learn more, she just accepted a teaching position in the local mormon congregation she attends, and my boys are continuing to attend with her and are being formed as little mormons. My wife is not equipped with theological or doctrinal proclivities and doesn’t care about Truth per se. She is eminently practical in nature and knows nothing else and doesn’t care to learn anything else, and that’s what drives her spirituality. My in-laws also live near by and are devout mormons, so my family is strongly embedded in mormonism. I struggle on a daily basis with a feeling of hopelessness and I know that’s a sin since I’m lacking faith in the promises of Christ that he will answer my prayers. But I fear that as I continue on this journey that it will take me further from my wife and sons. My sons are already talking like mormons, saying things like “Dad, we’re not catholic why do you have that book? We’re mormons.” “Dad, our church is the only true one because there was an Apostasy.” It really feels like I must choose between becoming a Catholic and my family’s happiness and unity. I know my wife sees it that way. And now, I found out that a major extended family event - a marriage - will take place on the same day as the Easter Vigil (March 22). I had hoped that at least my wife would attend my baptism with me, if nothing else out of a desire to share this step in my life with me. Perhaps she still will. But now she’ll have the added tension of potentially alienating her anti-catholic mormon family if she skips the wedding and reception to be with me, and all to support me in something she doesn’t want me to do.
I really need your prayers. I’m really struggling and wonder whether I should even continue on the path toward the Easter Vigil. I suppose now’s the time that God wants to see what I’m made of. At the moment though, I fear that I’m not strong enough to see this thing through.