i just want to thank everyone, from the bottom of my heart, who has responded to my posts with such warmth, love, support and encouragement. this community has helped me so much and means so much to me. just to update you on how i am doing, i am feeling much better, and the darkness has finally lifted. i still don’t feel much inner peace, and i still have some anxiety, and today has gotten off to a rocky start – but i’m following my pastor’s advice and learning to take life one moment at a time so that it doesn’t completely overwhelm me. i feel very ashamed of how i reacted to the darkness when it attacked me, which shows that i still have a lot to work on, but at the same time i am deeply grateful for all that i went through because i feel that i have new strength and a new sense of purpose and direction to become more diligent and consistent in my faith. today won’t be the new beginning that i was hoping for, but tonight definitely will be – i plan to become much more consistent in prayer and devotion, and i will continue to update all of you on how my spiritual life is progressing.
words can’t express how much your amazing support has meant to me. when i read your incredible responses to my cry for help, they literally brought tears to my eyes, and reminded me that i am never alone. i may feel helpless at the moment, and know that i have a long way to go until i reach holiness, but i finally feel far from hopeless. i don’t know how i can thank all of you enough, for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers, and responding with such love and kindness. i also have good news in that the demon might have finally left my friend. we’re not sure yet if it’s really gone, so we’re not yet getting our hopes up, but please continue to keep my friend in your thoughts and prayers as we look towards an end to this battle with darkness. it’s very complicated how the demon was hurt and might have been defeated, and i don’t have time to tell the whole story, but it’s a great testament to the power of Jesus and the Cross, and it just goes to show that light will always overcome darkness, if we only wait to see the ending.
to get to the point of this post, basically, i know that mixed marriages are strictly forbidden, but are there any rules on other relationships? i have developed feelings for a boy who is a Christian but not Catholic, which presents a problem. he will probably soon present to me the idea of a relationship with him, maybe even today, and i don’t want to get into a relationship with a non-Catholic if it would be wrong. while it would hurt me, i would definitely give up this chance at a relationship if it meant that i was doing the right thing. i would really appreciate your thoughts on this - are the rules for relationships the same as the rules for mixed marriages? i don’t date casually - this would be my first relationship, and i would take it extremely seriously. i don’t want to grow close to someone and then have to leave them because they’re not Catholic, so before the relationship begins, i would really appreciate it if you could tell me -
would it be wrong for me to have a romantic relationship with a non-Catholic? if so, i will definitely tell him that we should just remain friends, and i will know that God has other things in store for me.
thank you so much, again, to all of you, and i am sorry that i’ve been posting so much. i promise that i’m not trying to draw attention to myself - i just have had a lot of issues and questions lately, but my life finally seems to be calming down. i have no doubt that i’ve been protected from the demon, and that God is working in my life to make me stronger and bring me closer to Him. thanks again, and God bless you all. i love you all so much.
in the peace and love of Christ,