Reading through many post’s I noticed with interest people signing off with the words:Catholic,so going to heaven"
I know much of this maybe youthful bravado,but it is an area of faith which deeply concerns me.
My dear mother not too long ago died with cancer at the age of 72.During her life I have sometimes referred to her as the “Mother Theresa” of Cumbernauld where she lived.During which time she very seldom missed daily mass.She was usually found amongst those cleaning the chapel afterwards.As well as raising 4 children of her own and on her own mostly because her husband was a drinker;she was always helping the elderly and frail of the parish.She many,many times organised annual pilgrimages to Lourdes,accompanying and supporting the old and frail throughout the trip.She even adopted three disabled children(one dying in infancy).
Almost everyone spoke of her as one whose life was devoted to :first her faith and then very close behind;those in need.
There was no one more in admiration of these things than me.That is why I am so troubled in relation to this question of confidence.Because this beautiful sacrificial woman,in her desperate time of need had no confidence but much fear.
If she had not done enough to be sure of heaven what chance did I have with my selfish "life?
I remembered reading a book on this very topic which talked of confidence for believers before God and his judgement ,which said that if God punished his own son in a sinners place,how would he then punish the sinner at the judgement,who believed in the Saviour as well? Did my mother believe this?..Did I?
To my eyes my dear mother could only hope for a place in purgatory and I am not positive she was certain she was good enough to go even there.
That’s why this topic so intrigues me,and I am asking Where is our rest,who have been raised Catholics,at the end of our journey?Especially since the generation of Catholic faithful before us,were by far,much,much more faithful than us. Should there be confidence?If so how is it expressed?