**I’ve been in and out of the Church pretty consistently since my early teen years. But throughout this period, I’ve also had persistent urges to return to the faith in which I was raised. I don’t think I’ve ever completely let go of my belief in God, all the while my mental faculties are claiming religion to be null and void.
It can be frustrating being torn between two radically different worldviews-that of Atheism, and that of Roman Catholicism. It’s time to come to terms with what I truly believe, and after trying eveything else but, I’ve decided the only way to make sense of my desire to be Catholic even while rejecting the concept of God/deity, is to give Catholicism a fair chance. If I only consistently fight against my will to believe, without giving it a closer examination, then I can be assured a life of religious confusion.
I’m young-now is the time to build a foundation for the life I want to live-but in order to do that, I must first examine what it is I want from life. My plan is to begin again with the basics, such as daily prayer (morning, evening and mealtimes), weekly Mass, and some Bible reading. I know from experience finding other young adults (early twenties) who take their religious commitments serious once they’ve been made can be a difficult task. I’m hoping my attendance at my new Parish will serve as a meeting place for strong believers. I want to discover the root to my Catholic longings and follow them where they may lead. If Catholicism is right for me, then it will be time well spent. If not, I can at least move on to follow other options as they come into my life.
I hope these forums will prove to be the influence I need!**