Have I sinned?,
This morning, when I was half-asleep I don’t know if I’m imagining it or just dreaming it, but in my imagination/dream, I was in the comfort room with a girl, and she was looking at me while I was urinating, and she kind of said: nice, then I said, in my imagination/dream: now let me see yours, and in my imagination/dream, I saw hers and then I woke up.
I’m not quite sure if I were fast asleep or half asleep, it was so sudden, but I remember trying to wake up and pray, but I failed to do so.
It’s a sin to look at a girl with lust right?, even if we’re not looking if we are imagining a girl with lust, it is a sin, but I’m really unsure of what really happend, it was all too fast, and when I got up I felt aroused, and guilty in a way.
I don’t remember looking at that girl with me in the comfort room (in my dream/imagination) like I want to do it with her, but I saw her sexual organ, and I can clearly remember, as in clearly, that I looked at hers and was mesmerized or something.
Have I sinned because of this incident? I’m really confused about whether or not it’s just a dream or I was actually imagining it, but I felt asleep at some point.
Please help me, I’ve just recently conquered my pornography/masturbation habits, and for the past 3 weeks, I’ve been very careful not to let myself give in to the temptation again, I want to pray, but I don’t know if I should pray for forgiveness (either I was really imagining), or pray for gratitude (if it were just a dream).
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