I’m not sure if this is the right place for this thread but here goes. This is quite embarrassing but I am in desperate need of help hence why I signed up here.
Recently, against all my religious teachings and as a flat out contradiction of my moral compass I began to watch porn aged 16 after never doing so before. Porn of all kind, inter-racial, anal, transexual, you name it, I’ve seen it and lusted over it. I knew it was bad, I knew I would be condemned to hell for it but I couldn’t stop myself. It was like I was being possessed by some other-worldy being.
My addiction is out of hand now, I’m ejaculating at least 6 times per day and I even went for one in the toilets during mass due to finding a girl sitting next to me so attractive.
Is there anyway out for me? Or am I condemned to hell forever? I tried praying to the Lord God and his Son and even Mary, with no luck so far.
Any advice is appreciated.