I’ve been with my girlfriend for 1.5 years now. We met on a Catholic dating site and it was pretty miraculous how it all came together. She’s from another part of the country and my family was against it. But we persevered and God made it possible for us to finally live in the same area (not together, obviously).
We’ve got an incredible amount in common. We think the same way. We both want the same things out of life and to live the same lifestyle. It’s really like we’re made for one another. There were powerful signs when we first got together. Mass readings, people telling us how much we inspired them, dreams, etc. So basically, both of us really and truly believed that God was calling us to marry one another and we were thrilled about it.
Now we’re a ways down the road. Still very much in love (obviously no more butterflies and sparkles), and we’ve been whacked in the head with reality plenty of times. But God has always helped us persevere and grow closer. We’ve truly made each other a better person already through overcoming addictions and working on personal faults.
BUT we’re getting closer to the time we decided it’s best for us financially, socially, etc. to get engaged and now I’m suddenly getting nervous about the commitment. I’m a very scrupulous person, so I’m wondering if that’s all this anxiety really is, but I can’t put my finger on the cause and it’s killing both of us. Objectively, I want nothing more than to be with her. Emotionally, I’m a nervous wreck.
I’m going to speak with my parish priest, but I figured I’d throw this out there. Any advice? Thoughts?
To anticipate the barrage, did I discern another vocation before this? Well, I didn’t enter a monastery or seminary or go on any retreats. But I prayed for a few years about it. Finally I got so frustrated that I begged God to give me some sign if he wanted me to enter a religious vocation, because if not, I would presume he wanted me to get married to someone.
Well, within a week, he brought my current girlfriend into my life.