I read this in “Story of a Soul” (St Therese of Lisieux) last evening:
*One of the novices, greatly discouraged at the thought of her imperfections, tells us that her mistress spoke to her as follows:
"You make me think of a little child that is learning to stand but does not yet know how to walk. In his desire to reach the top of the stairs to fhind his mother, he lifts his litttle foot to climb the first step. It is all in vain, and at each renewed effort he falls, Well, be like that little child. Always keep lifting your foot to climb the ladder of holiness, and do not imagine that you can mount even the first step. All God asks of you is good will.
From the top of the ladder He looks lovingly upon you, and soon, touched by your fruitless efforts, He will Himself come down, and, taking you in His Arms, will carry you to His kingdom never again to leave Him. But should you cease to raise your foot, you will be left for long on the earth."*
It seems what I need to do is pretty clear now. :o Thank you for your advice and encouragement!