Recently, I’ve been a bit concerned about whether I should be looking more things up about the Catholic faith, mainly regarding sin, even when I feel like I have a genuine understanding of them.
For example, the other day I was thinking about the topic of wrath. I felt genuinely confident in my understanding of it and judgment of how to avoid it, but then I got worried that if I didn’t do further research into it, I would possibly miss out on learning something new about it…and thus not being as strong in my faith as I could be.
If we have genuine confidence (and not cockiness) in our judgment of how to avoid a sin, are we free to trust in that judgment and not have the need to do further research? It seems like that’s the answer, but as I said, I’m concerned that I might miss out on something that I never realized, that would strengthen me in my faith.
I did reassure my understanding of wrath, and it aligned with my prior judgment on it…though I waited until where I felt more comfortable to do so - the next day - instead of as soon as possible. (I did have free time.) My mindset was that I had sufficient knowledge on the topic, and it wouldn’t hurt to simply reassure that later at my leisure. This got me thinking; if I did end up learning something new, would it have been a problem that I didn’t learn how to improve as soon as reasonably possible?
I’m not sure if this comes off as scrupulous…I wouldn’t say I’m obsessing over it, but I want to make sure I’m not hindering the growth of my faith. Obviously God knows if I have the intention of growing stronger in my faith.