I have a fear of confession, mainly due to several bad experiences and it usually takes me about 3 or 4 trys to actually make it to and through the sacrament.
My problem is this, in my home parish we have 3 priests, on of whom is very nice and I know he means well but any time he sees that I don’t go up for communion during daily mass he makes a huge announcement about hearing confession after mass and looks straight at me while doing so but doesn’t offer to hear confessions after every daily mass. And yes I am usually the only one during daily mass who won’t go up for communion and it is usually because I need to go to confession:imsorry: but sometimes because I didn’t make the fast
I have tried going over this with him, but he won’t respond to my email (I am now at school some distance away but return at Christmas when I graduate). I know where my issue stems from but it isn’t something that I can really talk to him about as it involves one of his brother priests. It makes me feel extremely self conscious and frequently causes me to keep away from the sacrament longer then normal because of anxiety and a fear of what happened with another priest will happen again.
What should I do?