Due to my particular situation I cannot go to the priest to ask these questions so please be patient. I’d rather not go into the details of why. Having been on this forum for a few weeks I know my story would NOT be received well so please just trust that speaking to him is not an option.
I have several habitual sins that I feel uncomfortable confessing because I know I will probably continue to commit them. As a result I find myself leaving confession with a feeling of … disappointment in myself? I don’t know how to describe it but on the same hand I feel like NOT going to confession is also an issue.
What is the teaching on habitual sins?
I was non-Catholic before and developed these sinful habits during that time and while I try very hard to overcome them I’m not at the point yet where I’ve mastered control over them.
I had several VERY BAD experiences in confession. First, I lied in the confessional (not intentionally, it was a knee jerk reaction because I felt so uncomfortable with the father). I went back and confessed my lie but felt like I still fudged it by trying to explain away the sin instead of directly facing it. I had my very bad experience after this (very, very shocking and traumatic experience) that led to me avoiding confession for over a year. I eventually managed to return to the confessional but was crying so hard and struggling so much that I only confessed one sin and forgot ALL THE OTHERS (which are mortal sins).
Now I’m at the point where I know I must go back and confess the sins I forgot but I’m terrified it’s going to go as poorly as the last three attempts. Any advice on how to tackle this very bad situation???
I am so, so, so, so uncomfortable with priests after my bad experience so I’m just worried I’m going to get nervous and scared in the confessional and make stupid mistakes AGAIN.