last week I went to Confession… I was waiting for it for a while, and was very happy I finally got a chance to go. I had some sins to confess that were really bothering me.
I went to a parish I’d never been to because the time fit me better. (it was a busy day)
There were lots of people in line for confession… and I guess there wasn’t really enough time, cause the priest didn’t let me finish all my sins… maybe I made my list too long and included lots of venial sins, LOL, I don’t know… so he just went right ahead and absolved me.
Afterwards, I was very upset, cause I was hoping for a patient confessor lol cause I knew my list was sort of long. But at the same time, I felt really forgiven…I felt much like I did after my first Confession in the Church - so clean inside, and reconciled with God. I thought that maybe my sins weren’t actually sins, or weren’t mortal, and that’s why God didn’t allow me to confess them. Or maybe, they were sins but God still forgave me cause I felt so bad about them, and brought them to confession, though I never got the chance to say them out loud.
I really felt like God wanted me to trust in His mercy, and that I was hurting Him by being distrustful. I decided to trust the priest, in obedience, and trust God. After I decided this was God’s will and thanked Him for His mercy, all the confusion in my mind disappeared and I felt a lot of peace.
The next day, I received the Eucharist and I don’t think I received in a state of sin, - it was wonderful and God helped me so much.
But now, it’s Thursday, and I’m second guessing myself… was a right to believe that I was forgiven?
what does the Church teaching say? does anyone know?