Hello everyone. As I have mentioned before, I recently returned to the Church after living in sin for nearly a decade. The question I have today pertains to the confessions I have made since then.
In the past, I had often wished grave harm on others, to the point of wishing death upon them. At the first confession I made after returning, I confessed this as “I have often wished harm on others.” I worded it like this because I was embarrassed to go into more detail, though I would have explained it thus if the priest had prompted (he did not.) Afterward, I thought about it, and realized that with my vagueness, my description may not have been sufficient for the priest to understand the severity of the sin, and thus resulted in the confession being invalidated.
I have spoken with three different priests in subsequent confessions about this issue. One of them commented that it certainly made the sin more severe, but he did not make any comment about it invalidating the initial confession. The other two said that the intitial confession was “probably” not invalidated, with one of them commenting something like “Father probably understood what you meant, since basically everyone has had these thoughts at some point,” and the other commenting something like “now, if you had actually been making specific plans to kill somebody, that may have invalidated the confession” (I had not.)
My concern is the word “probably.” I believe that I am a scrupulous individual, and therefore, such weasel words as “probably” don’t sit well with me when it comes to the state of my soul. Should I understand what the two aforementioned priests said to mean “yes, your confession was valid, now move on with your life” or should I pursue further council somewhere?
Thanks, and please pray for me, that I might overcome my difficulties!