I am seventeen years old and therefore at the age where there’s a lot of pressure to drink alcohol with family on special occasions or with friends at school proms etc. (though I don’t tend to go to parties as I’m quite introverted). I like wine and cider and, on an intellectual level, I see nothing wrong with drinking alcohol in moderation, where it’s legal and otherwise permitted. However, for some reason I have deep feelings that I shouldn’t drink any alcohol and feel very guilty when I do. I don’t think this comes from scrupulosity or anything like that - it’s not as if I doubt in my mind that it’s ok and then my conscience develops an aversion to it; it’s the other way around. I have resolved for the moment not to drink alcohol, and when in tempting situations I often succeed, but I also sometimes fail.
Why is there a conflict between my feelings and my intellect? Could God be calling me to a teetotal life? The only other option would be that I have a faulty conscience, and I suppose I can be prone to scrupulosity, but again, that’s when I’m actually doubting whether an action is intrinsically right or wrong, which I’m not in this case. And, for what it’s worth, I think I generally have a pretty well-developed conscience.
Thanks in advance for your advice and prayers,