The pastor at my local parish told me a couple of months ago that he would not mind being my constant personal confessor so long as I recognize that he might not always be available at the drop of a hat due to his busy schedule. I, of course, told him that I understood. Now, for the past several weeks I’ve gone to confession having to confess to the other available priest due to the urgency of needed confession.
Once again I am in mortal sin, and I prayed to Jesus asking him to forgive me and to give me the grace to make it to the next available confession – however, my soul is yearning to confess to my pastor, the one who said I could meet with him should he be available, and he isn’t available until tomorrow (Thursday) morning which is actually the day after the next available confession (which is today, actually), where the other available priest will likely present, as usual.
If I do not go to the next available confession today, will I be lying to Jesus? Will I be pressing my luck with his grace? I do want to confess my sin, but, again, I just really want it to be with my pastor who I trust, respect, and who has helped me so many times before.