I’ll try to be brief because I’m pregnant and a bit more emotional than usual and really just need some advice. Thank you.
I’ve worked somewhere for 4 years so my children could have free tuition and my son, when he turned college age, decided instead on the military. My daughter will go to college in 2 years so I’m staying for her.
The problem is, this is hard to explain in a way that sums up just how bad my job is. My current job stresses me out to the point where I’ve had to have my seat moved, I work with someone who hates and spreads rumors, i get panick attacks etc…
If I leave, at the appropriate time, we will earn enough (we made too much now) for her to get free Excelsior tuition anyway from a good SUNY school.
My lifetime dream was to always be a stay at home mom, my kids are pretty much grown now but this new baby, I just want to stay home with him.
I feel selfish but I’m not sure why since she’ll have free college just not a catholic college. The fact that this jobs affects me mentally and emotionally is always something that made me say I am suffering for the good of my children.
The plan would be to move to the suburbs where I could stay home and raise this baby. Am I being selfish? Should I stick it through that job so my daughter can get a free catholic college. Or accept I’ve stayed there 4 years with good intentions and now life has changed. She would be far from her friends (she’d be 17 and driving) but we would be able to afford it.
Any guidance is appreciated. I’m so very used to giving up my joy, my time my everything that even if free SUNY is there I still feel like I’m doing a disservice to my teen daughter and i must continue to sacrifice.
(ps- the baby would have to stay in day care(we don’t know where yet) at 4 months if I stay and ofcourse that’ll be hard )