Hi apologies if this sounds muddled but I'm confused about my situation.
I converted a year ago to Catholicism - the pull was so strong and it has been a wonderful start .
Each Sunday during the Eucharist I am filled to overflowing with love and tears fall. At first I was embarrassed but it happens each week sometimes even more intensely.
Where I usually sit there's an statue of the Lord with his crucifixtion wounds clear but his arms are open.
I feel that he wants me' to serve in a deeper way but I am not the right person or good enough for that.
20 years ago I studied theology at university with the intention of becoming a pastor but I changed track and fell away from the church
And for many years until a while ago
I have felt God's presence often and it has always left me' overwhelmed and peaceful.
Am I just misinterpreting these signs
I pray that the Lord will show me' what he wants me' to do
The answer I know is to serve me' and my church
I have tried to turn away but the desire only grows.
Any thoughts truly welcome ;)
Maybe I'm going nuts !