I am always reading what deliberate consent of the will is but I always seem to find the same answers.
It is understandable that this is a tricky thing to answer, (especially if you don’t explain well what the situation is). I know what the catechism says about what is required for a sin to be mortal: full and deliberate consent/ awareness that it is a sin/ grave matter.
I just want to focus on full and deliberate consent.
I was in the same place that a girl who I think is pretty was in. Of course, I know that our personalities would not go well together. A thought came up in my head: “I would marry her if I wasn’t going to be a priest.”
Of course I would not lust for her, and sometimes I do fight that temptation. Though, this thought seemed to come all of a sudden. I don’t remember if I resisted it or not. It seemed to just pop up in my head without any resistance.
Though, after it just “popped up” I thought, “why did I say that? Was it for a lustfull thought? No, that’s evil, stop !”
The thing is, I am not sure if this was done with full consent. I always find things that say, if you catch yourself in the act and stop, then it is a venial sin. But this time, the thought seem to play out and then I wondered if I did it with full consent.
I don’t know if I am making excuses or what, I don’t want to be presumptious or justifying myself. I don’t know, I used to be Very scrupulious.
Please respond, I am planning on going to daily mass tomorrow.