So my husband and I have been married for 10 months and been Catholic for 7 months, and the other day it hit me that we're not really connecting spiritually. A lot of the problem is my fault I think. I have difficulty praying in general (or reading the bible for that matter) - its good for me, I know that, but its hard for me to enjoy, and really hard for me to get into the habit of doing. Its even HARDER for me to do these things with someone else, whether that's a close friend or my husband. Every so often, we try to read in the evenings or something, but usually by day 3 or 4 I'm dragging my heels and by a week and I'm all out refusing to participate.
Its terrible I know.
A few weeks ago I had started making myself do some prayers/devotions again. I was working through Acts and saying a few prayers, including a recitation of the Divine Mercy Chaplet, and every so often DH would walk in and try to sit by me while I did it and I totally hated it. And I really can't explain why.
We go to Mass together every week, and sometimes make it to a daily Mass. Every so often we go to Eucharistic Adoration together. As another bit of background, my husband does like praying the rosary, but its not a prayer form that speaks to me (or that I can really get into).
So my question is a) How do I get myself to do this? and b) Is there anything you can suggest that might be a good way for us to connect on this level? I can't figure out why psychologically this is so difficult for me.