I am kind of in a funk, I have been discerning a vocation to the religious life for sometime now. Everything was lining up and seem to be working out in regards to moving to that direction, however a part of me still wants to get married, have children, and live a typical laymen life. Now I met this girl, and things are really really working out good between us and I could possibly see myself marrying her in the future, she is not Catholic, but rather Methodist, and is really open to God's presence in her life and she is contemplating coming to the Catholic Church.
So I feel like I am torn between the two, but I don't honestly know yet or not whether I have a vocation to that life or not for sure, but I guess I am still kind of scared that I might have regrets in my life later or not. Don't get me wrong, I am passionately in love with this girl, and your all going to think I'm crazy but we have only been officially together for about 4 months, but have known each other for over a year now.
We have talked about marriage and we both feel that we are for each other, but I can't help but feel that vocation looming over my head or something. Just I'm just curious to peoples thoughts, advice, recommendation, prayers, you name it i'll take it. Because, I don't want to rush God, but at the same time I don't want to lead this girl on in anyway, shape for form.
I look forward to your comments, thanks alot!
In His Name,