it has been awhile but i’m glad to back here. i went through four months of nearly crippling scrupulosity, originating from a sin i still experience guilt from, but i’ve been able to move forward, bit by bit, and this forum has helped me every step of the way. even if i didn’t speak much, the threads here were very helpful
i need help and guidance once again. since 8th grade has begun i have started to experience suicidal thoughts and tendencies. i recently relapsed in terms of self harm since school started once again. it’s now my sophomore year in high school and i am struggling with this.
i do not self harm in places that could kill me ultimately, but i’m inclined to leave scars around my arms and neck. i’m wondering if it is mortal sin if i’m not diagnosed with a mental illness. i have been tested by a therapist and i came up normal. i do not know why i self harm. i am not sure if i have begun to normalize, or, even worse, romanticize the appearance of my scars. i’m having a hard time feeling in general.
any advice or prayers are greatly appreciated. God bless.