Now this conversation came about today after my Grandmother fell on the steps of our Protestant Church (My Grandmother is fine thank God). We started talking about how we were a bit concerned that the Pastor did not even ask if my Grandmother was okay (he was standing but a few inches from her, many members of the Church had asked if she was okay and were watching). The Pastor was at the Church door because he shakes everyones hand as they leave the Church. Anyways, this lead to her bringing up Catholic Priests and the Catholic faith in general.
Pastors are allowed to marry and you know that Catholic Priests aren’t (I kinda think my Grandmother was trying to say just let Priests marry and this Catholic Priest and alter boy scandal wouldn’t have happened). She was talking about how the Catholic Church knew for decades that the Priests were molesting the altar boys and it was just ignored. I told her it isn’t the Catholic faither at fault nor is it the Church, it is the corruption of people. It’s a horrible event, but you can’t take it out on the Catholic faith or the Church, this comes down to corrupt people who look the other way when it comes to what the Bible clearly states is wrong. She also stated that the Pope knew of what was happening and looked the other way. The Pope and the Church are perceived as infallible (correct me if I am wrong), so how am I to respond to her, when she expresses concerns that the Catholic faith is corrupt?
If you have checked any of my older posts, you will see that I was wanting (and still am) to become a Nun. My Grandmother also thinks that many gay men and lesbian women become Nuns and Priests. Weither or not that is true, it’s not a sin unless you act on it. She realized that not all are bad, but how on Earth can I ever tell her this is (becoming a Nun) something I want to pursue in my life if she has this belief that some Nuns are lesbians (let me make it clear I am NOT a lesbian)? I also was thinking about visiting a Catholic Church, now how can I ever do that if she has this perversed view of the Catholic faith?
I did the best I could to explain to her that corrupt people are at fault here, the Catholic faith is beautiful, but in everything in life there will always be corrupt people. I do not want to turn my back on God if he is indeed calling me, I also do not want my Grandmother to be ashamed of me or think less of me. I don’t know if this is just my fanciful thinking or if my thoughts truely have merit, but I wonder if God is testing me to see if my faith in him is strong or if this is his way of telling me that I should be content with being a Protestant. I understand that last bit may seem silly or may sound as though I am trying to find signs from God, so maybe you can understand my utter confusion.
I am very sorry for my length post, thank you for reading.