I joined this forum some time ago in some distress over issues I am having with the Episcopal Church and its theology and with actions and theology of my priest which I will not go into here in detail, but in short he is trying to force a type of evangelical charismatic influence on our rather high church parish and has stripped art, icons, etc. out of our chapel.
However, I currently have a lack of transportation and I'm in school. I could make it to the Catholic Church most Sundays, but I'm not sure about RCIA. Can the priest take this into account and help me enter the Church in another way if it becomes a problem to attend RCIA from lack of transportation?
I have been drawn to Catholicism for eight years. I have read all the catechism and many books on Catholic theology and some of the works of the saints. My prayer life has been grounded in Catholic practices such as the Rosary for years now. I am more familiar with the faith and prayer practices than most Catholic friends I've had. Could any of this be taken into consideration?
If not, I would respect the practice of the church and simply submit myself spiritually until such time as God shall permit the circumstances for me to be joined to the Church sacramentally. However, I long for the sacraments, especially confession. I am in desperate need to receive them and be healed. The Protestant theology of Anglicanism has been hurtful to my psyche, especially justification by faith through grace alone. Instead of being assured of forgiveness through proper sacramental channels like confession I am left feeling like I have to pray "hard enough" to receive the sacrament, and then I am left wondering, if I am not truly worthy, if I have not received the Body at all, as the Anglican thirty-nine articles say. A Catholic receiving the Body unworthily may be condemned, but at least Jesus is present. In classical Anglican theology, not only am I condemned, but Jesus was not present to me in the sacrament at all. For all my priests' railing about "works righteousness" and "grace" I am left feeling like Protestant theology is a salvation of works and being worthy enough instead of the true grace of Christ.
Pray for me!