I’m not really sure what to do with this situation. I’m new here, but everyone seems so helpful and nice about things, so I figured I’d ask for some opinions.
I am 23 years old and I have a 4 year old daughter. She will be starting kindergarten next year. I am a college junior in a journalism program. I go to school full time, taking 5 courses. I also work part time at a hair salon. This keeps me away from my daughter 2 nights a week and every other day on weekends. I make very little money, since it is part time work. We live at home with my mother, who is more than helpful and understanding. I couldn’t ask for a better mother.
Lately, however, I’m starting to think that maybe my situation isn’t the best and I need to make some changes. I think I need to make some major changes in my life in general. But I think maybe I should stop going to full time school and go to Saturday classes. This way, I could get a full time, 40 hour per week job. I’d be able to spend time with my daughter at night. I’d be making more money, and possibly we’d be able to live on our own. This way, I would feel more like her mother and less like a co-parent with my own mother (who has the best intentions, but sometimes can’t butt out).
The only problem with this is that I would have to change my major. Saturday programs don’t offer journalism as a major. So basically, I’d be taking business or professional skills as a major. To be honest, I do love writing and I would be a little disappointed if I gave it up, but I’m not even sure that it is what I want to do. And who is to say that I can’t go to school for business, get a job and write later? My main goal with writing isn’t to be a reporter, but to write a travel book. I love Disney World (almost to the point of obsession!) and would love to write a book about it one day. So maybe a better idea is to do this Saturday program, get a regular job and focus on getting a degree, then writing a book later in life when i’m more settled.
I think another part of the problem is also that I hate the college I am at now. Plus I’ve been kind of depressed this semester, so my grades have been slipping alot and I feel like I’m stuck in a hole there. I like my writing classes, but really don’t like anything else about this college. I just feel like I’m stuck.