I’ve been going through some problems lately with my faith and the biggest problem I’m having is with cowardice. I was wondering if anyone could help me and suggest a way to right this?
I’ll start with saying that I’m a man, and already I know that a man shouldn’t be a coward when it comes to his faith but he should be firm in it and proud of it. It’s just that whenever I talk about my faith with others, or also talking about other social issues like about my pro-life views or my pro-traditional marriage views, I get so nervous and my thinking is so disordered that I don’t make good statements.
A lot of times I’m the only Catholic around, and I know that I should say something, to show that I don’t agree with what the group around me is saying, and not let, for example, their promotion of a woman’s “choice” to abort her child stand unopposed.
This very issue came up recently but I ended up saying nothing because I was so shaken that I don’t think it would even have done any good to open my mouth, my voice was all shaky (rather like it was the first time I asked a girl out on a date :D)
And this even has to do with my Catholic faith itself as well.
I can sit here in the privacy of my room and think about what I believe and why, but when I talk about it to others, or even now just imagining talking about it to others, I don’t feel confident. And I know that this comes across in my voice and in my body language. I’m so obsessed with what others might say, and I’m afraid I might just get defeated in an argument and make Catholicism look bad.
How do I become a cool calm and collected man when it comes to these issues? And how do I get to the point where I can share my faith with confidence?
Should I go and study theology, philosophy and apologetics more? The problem I forsee though is that I’ve thought about the abortion issue enough to consider most of the arguments for it and why they’re wrong, and I know that I could type up a good response against abortion on the internet. But a much better way to defend life would be to reason with others about it in person. But the last time I had the chance I was an emotional wreck so I just shut up.
Can you suggest any good ways to stop caring so much about what others might think about me?
Do you think I might simply have an anxiety problem?