I’m a Catholic-wannabe, in the midst of the RCIA process now. I just attended my first, and I imagine my last, CRHP weekend. I should say that I “partially” attended, since I found it necessary to leave about half way through the experience.
I found nothing unifying about the experience. If anything, I found it to be divisive. My perception was that most of the presenters, those who have previously completed a CRHP weekend, seemed rather cliquish. And as I have seen mentioned in other posts, there does seem to be a secretive side to the whole experience, which is understandable on some level since there are some private experiences shared, but I don’t find it necessary to frequently and repeatedly pray about the confidentiality issue. I have a checkered past, and my life is an open book. If there are things that you don’t want shared with others, keep them to yourself in the first place.
I don’t know what I expected from CRHP, but it certainly wasn’t anything I could have imagined before I attended. I guess I hoped for something more spiritual and less social. Not at any time did I feel the spirit move me. I attend spiritual gatherings outside the Catholic Church with regularity, at least once weekly. While these gatherings are not associated with any church or denomination, there are often several Catholics in attendance. Those people have been essential in drawing me to the Catholic faith, without preaching or witnessing concerning the wonders of Catholicism, but just through the way they live their lives on a regular daily basis. I will be at one of those gatherings this evening, and we won’t discuss who our favorite sports team is, or how important our career is, or how God has blessed us with wealth an property. We will discuss things spiritual, and I can promise you that I will leave there feeling much closer to my God than I did from CRHP.
I am currently considering taking a break from my RCIA journey. I will discuss the matter with a trusted friend. Perhaps I’m simply disillusioned from the CRHP experience, and I imagine these current feelings will pass. I do believe I can simply and quietly practice my faith, continue to pray, and leave the rest up to God.