Decorating for Christmas is such a big deal to me. A really big deal. It is such a warm, family togetherness time. Dh and I both work full time, so it is hard sometimes to do stuff together - the whole family. Usually we are stressed, tired, etc…
Last night was supposed to be tree decorating night. I got off work early. Bought eggnog and cocoa, dug out the Bing Crosby cd. I was looking forward to it all day. This is Kyle’s first Christmas, and our first in our new home. I just knew these were going to be wonderful memories. Plus, one of my favorite parts about decorating the tree is unwrapping each ornament and remembering and telling the kids about the memories that go with each ornament.
Well, I got home yesterday and the very first thing dh said was, “Don’t be mad.” His aunt watches the kids during the day while we are both at work and she took it upon herself to decorate the tree. And I know she knew we planned to decorate it. I told her in the morning that I bought the kids some ornaments to decorate and that they could do that during the day if they wanted because we were going to decorate the tree when I got home that night.
At first I was so sad and disappointed. I went to my room and cried. (yes, I know that sounds childish, but I own my emotions). Then I got really angry. Like, throw stuff at the wall angry.
Dh said that he would take it all down and we could re-decorate together, but I said no. I just wouldn’t know how to explain that to the kids. They are so excited about it and I don’t want them to see me upset about it. Kyle is really excited too. He keeps pointing at the tree, babbling, and bouncing up and down.
One of the worst parts for me is that the aunt didn’t even take any pictures. She uses our digital all of the time, and it was out in plain sight on the table. She told dh to let her know if I got upset, but I don’t want to make a big deal about it to her. I don’t know what her intentions were, but I am going to assume she wanted to help because I’ve been so tired lately. I am just so disheartened and the air has gone out of my Christmas sail.
Sorry for the long post…