Thanks so much for your reply. I agree whole-heartedly that the Holy Spirit comes to us when we are serious about giving ourselves totally. God assures us that if we ask we will receive (cf Mt 7: 7-11), but how many of us ask with faith, and persevere?
I’m so grateful to God for giving you the grace to begin again. Someone wrote that self-love dies 15 minutes after we do. It is a constant battle, Petra, because the evil one does not give up tempting us.
St. Louis de Montfort knew this and so he tells us to renew our Consecration. It is not a once in a lifetime event but it is the beginning of a total giving as God gives us His grace to grow in holiness. Neither of us can stop the evil one from tempting us but we can continually believe God will give us His grace to overcome temptation, if we ask with faith, hope and above all charity. The Litany to the Holy Spirit can help us appreciate how powerful the Holy Spirit is and how He works in our lives.
If when we experience our selfishness rising up to refuse some good God wants us to do, let us be grateful to see our weakness and immediately ask God’s help. Without Him we can do nothing. If we catch ourselves worrying about ourselves, let us ask God to increase our faith in Him. God looks at our hearts, Petra, He knows us and what we need. He gave us our Mother Mary to be our refuge and our help. Her words to St. Juan Diego are always a blessing for me. She said to him:
"Am I not your Mother? Are you not in the crossing of my arms?
When we are tempted to be discouraged about our selfishness less us think of being safe in Mary’s arms, close to Jesus! By God’s Grace, let us think of Mary often, instead of thinking so much about ourselves. She will help us to keep our eyes on Jesus as she did while on this earth.