I am having an issue staying in touch with my older sister who’s been a cloistered nun for a few years. We are both in our 20s and we used to be close in our childhood, but I havent visited or written to her since her first year in the convent. We live in different continents and as a student I haven’t been financially able to go visit her (and Ive also been busy). However, I also realize that I barely have any interest in keeping in touch with her. I’ve been agnostic all my life so I don’t have much interest in faith or whatever she deals with, and I don’t think she hasn’t any interest in my secular life. Also, both of our lives have been mostly uneventful, so I simply have little news to tell her and assume my parents tell her about me. I don’t even talk with my own parents about my personal life, and it would feel weird to talk to each otjer as adults after growing apart since I was a teenager.
We did speak recently over the phone and she was upset. I used to miss her, but now I dont feel much for her. I slightly resent her for going away, but I mostly approve of her doing her whatever she wants and I don’t want her to feel upset. I simply dread having to contact her, and I don’t really derive any benefit from it.
Right now I don’t know if I should write to her, and if I should be honest about what I really think of her or if there’s something else she should hear. If it was for me I could go on indefinitely without speaking to her again.
I welcome any advice or comments from those of you who’ve had similar experiences.