I have a question about mortal sin… I read that “mortal sin is committed with deliberate consent of the sinner. This means that mortal sin cannot be done ‘accidently’. A person who commits a mortal sin is one who knows that their sin is wrong, but still deliberately commits the sin anyway.”
Today at Mass, I sometimes felt distracted (even though the Mass was great, I was distracted in my thoughts) and I was trying to fight that. But at one moment, I suddenly had this really evil though (about God ) go through my mind. I didn’t “deliberately consent” to it… but afterwards I began really fearing that somehow I did, because I let it happen, and didn’t fight it… however I think that’s because I didn’t have time, it was so sudden. I’m kind of confused…
I asked God for forgiveness and decided that it’s a venial sin, and took Communion… but now I keep on second guessing myself, and I really can’t decide. I feel like whenever I’m in a state of grace, the devil tends to attack me more with all kinds of horrible thoughts etc.
It’s strange that I have all these worries because otherwise I felt so much peace after the Eucharist.
I was planning on going to daily Mass several times this week - and was really looking forward to that… but now I’m sort of afraid, what if what happened was a mortal sin?
Can someone clarify the Church teaching on this for me please? Thanks!!