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I come from a pentacostal background. Recently, a nephew of mine, (he’s pentacostal) was convinced that I was in need of exorcism. I don’t remember how, but I was persuaded by him to let him try to exorcise whatever might be there. I’ve been going through some difficult times, and in his opinion it was demonic (the idea isn’ that far-feched, since I’ve been involved in the occult).
Pentecostals can have an extreme view of possession. They call it deliverance and is sometimes very absurd. I would get a second opinion. Do you feel repulsed by sacred objects, such as a crucifix, Bible or holy water that gives him that impression that makes him believe this?
He persuaded me to confess my sins directly to God, without a priest present, (which I actually shouldn’t have done, I know). After that, we spent hours ‘exorcising’ the demons.
This is their version of exorcism. If he has no prior experience or training he needs to be careful and so should you. Praying for deliverance from evil is one thing. A full-fledged exorcism is quite another. Nothing wrong with prayer.
I have 2 general concerns: I’ve let him pray for me, and I’m almost terrified at possible harmful consequenses of the ‘exorcism’, perticularily because he isn’t catholic, and he isn’t a priest, and I don’t know if he has any authority to do such things. I’m trying to tell myself not to worry, but I can’t help myself. Furthermore, it may all be suggestion, eventhough I really don’t want to consider that because I feel such a line of thought has the tendency to undermine every spiritual experience.
I am confused and I am ashamed of it - what should I do?
Him praying for you is fine. Him having authority to command demons to leave is another. You should see a local priest, go through their questions, answering honestly and see what they say. They may ask you to see a psychiatrist first and an MD to rule out those kinds of issues. If they determine that an exorcism is needed they will set one up with you.
Contrary to what many people believe, it’s just been recently that some priests are receiving actual training to perform exorcisms. That’s a good sign. At least if there is not a local priest who will perform one for you (although there’s supposed to be at least one in every diocese), they can surely help you find one.
I understand that you are afraid of what might happen and you might feel ashamed. Don’t let that deter you from seeking help. There’s nothing to be ashamed of since you are honestly seeking help for it. Many people don’t seek help and live in fear constantly.
See a priest. Take it one day at a time.
Till then, I wouldn’t allow your nephew or just anyone to try to “exorcise” you. It may not be needed and even if it is, they could go about it the wrong way which could cause harm to you and them.