I hate to mention this but I feel that I should. I have been having a lot of problems with my fiance. All we do is agrue A LOT. It has gotten to the point that I am depressed and I don’t want to live no more. He has been out of a job the last 2 1/2 months, he has found a job part time just these past 2 weeks. I know that some of the stress is the bills and everything in the household was on my shoulders. But when he lost his job it got from bad to worst. We rent our apartment and we live in a bad neighborhood he now hangs out with these guys that sell drugs. One of them paid for his minutes on his phone because I didn’t have $. Ever since then he has all of these calls now that he hides from me. He always has his phone on viberate and when on the walkie-talkie he has it very low. He doesnt let me touch his phone, he goes everywhere with the stupid phone even to the bathroom. Before he started this new job he hangs out for hours out front. He excuse is he is smoking a cigarette; I don’t let him smoke in the house because I have asthma. He says I am going to smoke a cig and doesn’t come back until 1-2 hours later. When we first got back together as adults because we were childhood sweethearts and move away, we were always together. No matter what he was my best friend, my everything and now I feel so alone. I have talked to him about this several times and all he does is yell at me and says that I am not his mother. We are suppose to be saving for the wedding which is in 2 yrs and he acts like he doesnt care. Today we were at my mom’s house cooking inside because it rained here; he was getting all of these calls and telling me that he is wasting time at my mom house. I just can’t handle any more pain. I love him so much I don’t want to end it but it seems like I have to. Please someone help with some advice or prayers.
Thanx for listening.