I’ve been struggling with depression for about two and a half years. Last year my life took a turn for the better and I felt like I was on my way out of this desolation. I was (and am still) dating a wonderful young woman, I was studying in university something I loved/still love.
However, and for reasons I’m still trying to figure out, I have fallen into another major depressive episode. Its straining me spiritually, physically, and emotionally. It is putting an immense strain on all of my relationships like never before.
I’ve resolved to fight this harder than before. I’m starting to exercise, eat healthier, taking natural anti-depressants and doing my best to take care of my body. Yet I know that my depression has deep spiritual roots as well and that is difficult because I can only do so much to get God to hear me. I feel like I’ve been hitting a wall for the past couple of years and it has been frustrating.
I’m worried than my relationship might be compromised too much too late by my depression as my girlfriend has voiced her concerns about it and it is frustrating and worrying because I love her. She is the only person I have ever loved in this way and although I haven’t done it perfectly or always been loving, I keep telling myself to keep going. But I’m not sure how much longer she wants to be here.
Please pray for me.