i’m afraid i might be desiring blasphemous/sacrilegeous/desecrative thoughts, and getting pleasure/butterflies from it! This is sick [and it’s making me sick!]. i keep telling myself that i don’t desire these temptations, but it’s not working.
i know taking delight in temptation is venial, but i don’t want to take pleasure in grave matter (or venial, but i have to work on that).
i’m starting to wonder if it’s me that’s the cause of these scruples or the Devil.
i’m terried of our lord’s judgement and ending up in hell. :bighanky:
i’m making my mother cry and my father frustrated with my worries.