Ever since my husband left me 2 years ago. It has been a struggle to put the pieces back together again. I am so tired and exhausted as I am working 2 jobs in order to survive and take care of my two kids. Even though he does give money every month it seems as if it is such an effort for him because he can never give it on time. It is either two days later into the next month. Now it is winter this and starting to get hold. He needs to buy clothes for the kids and he is quiet he is not even making the effort to say I will tray and get them a few things. Never mind that he does not call them or even come and visit them.
To top it all off he has gotten a new job with more money and benefits. Our kids are not benefitting but the mistress and her child is. I feel as if God is blessing him here am I struggling from month to month just to survive. I have changed so many things in my life and am trying so hard to do the right thing. I know that I should not loose faith in God and that everything happens in his time. But I feel so despondent as if God is taking favour with my ex he seems to be so blessed. I am the one struggling to survive everymonth just to get through. And he is fine he has somebody to go home to everynight. He is making sure she is been taken care of. Their baby born is been taken care of and he checks to see how that child is. But his own kids he does not care what they eat are they okay, do they have warm clothes. Basically to find out how they are doing at school. Nothing it is as if these kids do not exist. And to top it all off when he left his previous job he could not even have the curtesy to tell me in case something should happen that he has left his previous job and going to work somewhere else.
Sometimes I feel as if I am just wasting my time following the straight and norrow path. Praying, reading the bible, changing my life and always having faith. When those people out there who do the wrong things are happy and progressing and their life is moving forward and they do not have a care in the world.