Judas betrayed God. Did Judas kill himself because of pride or because he was truly remorseful for betraying God? When does a guilty conscience reach the point where we receive forgiveness for our sins? Doesn’t that predisposition of knowing right from wrong and that guilty conscience lead us to seek forgiveness from God thru confession for the sins (both venial and mortal) that we commit or do we choose to disregard that guilty conscience and thus die in our sins and spend an eternity in Hell? Just like Protestants ask, I know where I’m going when I die (i.e. an assumption of being saved vs never having been saved in the 1st place) can’t Catholics have a fruitful disposition that leads them to dying in God’s grace? How can one avoid turning away from God?
If his pride led him to getting pieces of silver and that pride was broken, it would be hard to say that he went beyond guilt and towards repentance. However, if he truly was sorrowful and couldn’t live with himself, that could suggest that he was repentant or had some form of mental illness that gave him some leeway. Purgatory is a beautiful thing as it cleanses us of impurity. It’s hard to know if his betrayal or his suicide was a mortal sin because while it was grave matter and he knew it was wrong, I am wondering whether he did it under compulsion or whether it was premeditated and even if it was, we hope that he was truly and sincerely repentant. It seems like it was premeditated and thus mortal but he also seemed contrite and if he could have hit rewind might not have done it and thus may have made a perfect contrition (i.e. go & sin no more).
Even if it was of his own free-will and premeditated, I kind of have a hard time believing he should be in Hell because he carried out the plan that gave us all the ability to receive redemption from God. It was his action(s) that allowed us to receive forgiveness for our sins. Of course Jesus/God was the person whom made the sacrifice and suffered a grueling death, but if it were not for Judas’s betrayal, we wouldn’t be saved or someone else would have had to betray Jesus. And was Judas more culpable than Pontius Pilate where Judas’s aim was for silver/greed and Pontius Pilate was for accolade / acceptance. How do we know whom is more culpable? Again my hope is that they somehow repented before they died and are thus in purgatory instead of Hell.