I have been unemployed for long periods of time. For the past 6 months I have been working at a very low paying job that I am extremely over qualified for. It is not easy but I do it with a good attitude because I am grateful for what God gives me.
Here is the first problem. I don’t like to talk about my employment situation when in social settings because I believe that after all the stress I go through, I need a break and I need places where I can go and forgetting about my problems for a while. Also, a lot of people make comments that are just painful to hear. Sometimes it is purposely them being cruel because they want to hurt me. Sometimes, it is ignorance (they really just don’t understand how insensitive they are being) and other times, it is some ‘do-gooder’ who just pretends on the outside they are helping but the truth is, they just want to let their control issue shine. The way I deal with it is to state, ‘I do not want to talk about it’ I believe it is best to nip it in the bud and not give them an opportunity to say something that will hurt me. And I have suffered SO much pain at all the comments people have made over the years, I honestly can not bear to hear them anymore.
Well, it shocks me how many people just do not respect the boundary ‘I do not want to talk about it’. And I am at the end of my rope of continuously having to be polite and keep repeating the boundary.
Here is my second resentment. The secular world tells you the way to get a job is to network. Well… in my experience, ‘networking’ is just some fictitious concept some dude invented to create a business of employment councelling. It has never worked for me and looking back at my life, all the jobs I had was because it was God’s will. The 2 best jobs I had, I did horrible in the interview. In one interview all I did was cry and I got the job:rolleyes: So I believe at the end of the day, the best is to pray to God.
Well… being a human being, I joined a professional organization to network. We just had our Christmas party and I am in tears. I felt so small by all the talk about the jobs that are out there when I have approach several of those people asking for help and they all said ‘no’. I TOTALLY respect their ‘no’ since it is their right. But what kills me is if I have joined the best networking organization in town and they don’t want to help me the proof is in the pudding, networking does not work. Not to mention that I find it tacky that these people talk about all the opportunities in their organization when they know I am looking and have told me they won’t help me. It is l like telling someone I am an alcoholic and asking if they could help keep me sober and they say ‘I refuse to help keep you sober’ and every time they see me they waive a beer in my face.
So now my dilemma is as follows. I want to quit the organization because the pain is just so unbearable. However, I want it on my resume. I just don’t know what to do