Hey guys...some advice would be greatly appreciated!
First of all, I'm not very strong in my faith. I believe in God, Jesus, etc. however whenever I pray for something I don't really have much faith that it will happen, or I get discouraged, hence I don't really have much of a spiritual life and am a pretty big sinner.
Now for the meaty bit, I was dating this girl awhile back, we broke up and haven't seen her in nearly a year now, however I have kept in fairly regular contact with her over the phone. I still have feelings for her and do care about her (or so I think at times) - anyways, after SHE broke up with me she went through a phase of depression and anger, slept around with several guys, and even got filmed without her knowledge, tried to commit suicide, etc.
So of course this has deeply upset me as well, and she is depressed, is feeling pretty sickly, and feels like no one wants her. I've offered many times for her to come back to me and that I would take care of her, but she does not want to, she does not even want to meet me, just comes up with millions of excuses.
However, she wants to have long talks on the phone with me, and lay all her troubles on me, probably because I listen and I care ~ I have a pretty strong backbone and despite my emotional take with her, I can handle things when it gets pretty rough, painfully listened to her talking about her sexual encounters with guys, her attempted suicide attempt, hospitalization etc. over these last few months whilst restraining my anger (remember I have feelings for her).
The reason I guess she just wants me there is as some kind of support for her to cling on to all the while she goes and sleeps around. I could blast her, say some rude things, block her and never answer a call again, but I'm afraid I'll see a suicide in the paper, I could just disappear off the face off the Earth but I don't know what other troubles she'll get up to.
Despite all the rubbish that has been happening, I would take her back because I care about her and I don't want to see her hurt, but I don't really know what I should do. I've prayed about it, that whether or not she comes back to me, for God to help her, but whenever I hear a new story about her current "toy" she's doing it with, I get discouraged and stop praying.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.