So, I feel REALLY drawn to religious life, more than other vocations. I feel like it’s the only way I will truly be satisfied and be as holy as I can be and will do better for the Church. I also feel such detachment and dissatisfied for things of this world.
I would not mind being single, but it’s still falls short compared to religious life.
And as for marriage, I think I am certain(I know it’s confusing) that I will be miserable but still leave it open as a possible vocation just in case God calls me there. Although, to be honest, I don’t think I could fall in love with another man and marry him. I consider myself aromantic, meaning I just can’t have romantic feelings towards others. I will consider them like brothers etc. but romantically, I have never even had a real crush on someone before. So in a way I am asexual, but I still am tempted with sex, I guess. I just really wouldn’t want to get married or lose my virginity which I can never get back and I find it very valuable to lose. And I also don’t like the fact that there is not as much sacrifice like in the other 2 vocations.
I still am not able to join a community to discern or even visit but I keep thinking about my vocation and praying. From the information I gave you, what do you think about the possibility of having a religious vocation? Do you have any advice?
I honestly would be heartbroken if I could not become a religious. i have been thinking about a religious vocation on and off from the age of 18, I am 23 now.