Ever since I can remember I've always wanted to raise marry a girl who I love and who loves me and raise a big family. But lately I've been wondering if that is what God wants. A year ago I had a pornography addiction, and during this period I really had to choose my faith. Well I'm out of that now, and I've started praying so much more. I've started doing the liturgy of the hours and I really love it. I'm almost 16 now.
I dont have a girlfriend, but I do have a girl who's a VERY close friend to me and who I really do care for. We've helped each other alot and our relationship has helped both of us grow in our faith.
What I'm wondering is at my age, how should I continue with my relationships with girls, particularly that girl? I really still do want to get married someday and raise a family for God, but I'm wondering at my age, what should I do? I've always been a very lonely feeling type of person, sometimes an outsider I guess, and to be honest I am afraid of living alone as a priest. But maybe God is calling me to that? And not to raising a family as I had hoped?
From a spiritual aspect I think that being a priest would be so beautiful. I really want to consider being a priest.
But I've always wanted companionship so badly, and I've always wanted to be a father more than anything.
So my question is, how exactly should I continue with my life at this point?