Hello, brothers and sisters!
Few weeks ago I had about three of four days of clarity, when I was like 95% sure that I am called to be a priest. I am 16 and while I was catholic for my whole life, I turned back to God only one year ago (protestants could say that I was born-again ). Since then I joind local community and started to help a priest in a near parish with youth ministry. In September I began to work on my confirmation.
There are few things that make me think about priesthood… I love philosophy and theology, I love the Church and I am a huge fan of papacy, I like to talk with people about God, I like the sacraments, I want to help people. I like to wear black clothes and most of all, I love God.
(Here comes “but”) But… I am pretty sure that a large part of my family (non-practicing catholics) would take me entering the seminary very negatively… My mom actually told me, that it would be “a shame for the family”… I understand that my family members are more-or-less simple people, that they would like to see me with a wife and a bunch of kids.
Since I am young and I will be finishing high school and choosing a university in 2014, I was thinking about finding a university far from home (to become a bit independent) and after finishing it, I would decide if the call is really from God. Do you think that this would be a good idea? I would be maybe 23 or 24 after finishing the university (I am not sure, if I would be able to study philosophy and theology already, because that would “raise some questions” in my family circles, also if the call would not be real, I don’t think that I would survive in the world with a degree from philosophy ).
Also, if the reactions from my family would still be negative, would there be a possibility for me to be a priest in, let’s say, another country? I am pretty sure that the number of priest in my country is not on critical levels yet, so maybe there would be places, where I would be more needed. I would consider religious life, but diocesan priesthood seems more right to me now.
I know I should talk with a priest about this, but I am a bit shy on this matter, it is still exciting and fresh and… to be honest… scary :o . Do you think that I should still do it, considering my age and other issues I described?