[quote="john78, post:12, topic:307337"]
well the good thing about discerning the priesthood, it isn't up to our parents to decide, only ours to accept if called ! Though it would make life a little easier if they supported us on our journey.
I am in discernment as well, have completed i think around 90 % of the packet thus far, should be turning in what i got soon.... very nervous about it....
I am at a fork in the road too, and am putting off trying to go back to college till I get an answer .... I got a feeling I am on the right path, but am sick to my stomach as for waiting for answers, an to find out i could be waiting till the end of next year for even an interview ... makes my head spin ! being unemployed on one hand doesn't help matters but on the other it does.... I could try an find some horrid 9-5 job i would be miserable at, but am realizing i now have an opprotunity to start volunteering in charitable ways,
I have been in discernment for nearly 7 months now, and my problem isn't so much if I am being called, it is more like here I am what do You want me to do.
So now I am left to wait, but I cant just sit by and do nothing I am finding that the one place i volunteer at on the weekend isn't enough that I have to do more, so i hope to be able to... Hopefully while I am waiting, an going down this road ... I can hear Christ a little better than I am now... Do any of you in discernment feel yourself growing closer to Christ ? If so how ?
I see plenty of signs, least I am hoping I am , in my own life, I have thoughts in my head that are not my own , nothing profound, but enough to make me wonder what is going on...
An if I am not accepted I have a feeling I am going to be embarressed to say the least...
and probably more confused than I am going into discernment... I really wana take my packet and go plop in front of my Bishops' office an be like hey I am here I need some answers....
patience an staying calm are things i am working on at the moment. interested to hear how others are doing.
Wow, so it's not just me! I got a huge vibe reading your post, I tried to remember if it was maybe something that I wrote myself because you summed up my life and feelings pretty clearly there. I don't work either, and while I'm optimistic about one day finishing my degree I really don't feel interested in it anymore, and the same applies for working. Work has never been something that I've been able to happily be content with and understand, I find it a huge distraction to one's a daily devotion and the way they would want to live their lives in Christ. Although, I can obviously see the highest need that some people need to work, but few people know have the luxury of being able to only work when they need to; jobs today require you to commit your entire schedule and free time :hypno:
I feel your frustration man. My feelings are all over the place. Some days I wake up and I come within a heartbeat of just saying "screw it I'm gonna do it, I know it's for me!" and on other days I'm like "well, maybe I'm supposed to get married and live a regular path instead". I've put my life on hold for a long time, and to answer your question yes I've grown closer to Christ indeed, not only spiritually, but in so many more ways. My ongoing journey with God has opened my eyes to many things...I can now better understand how God works, what He wants from us, how to satisfy Him, how to make sense of things, how to embrace suffering, why we need God etc. All these things God has gradually showed me in my life, which only further supports my discernment, but at the same time I feel that I'm perhaps not ready just yet. I'm still quite young, somewhat inexperienced in some areas, still have a lot going on that I need to sort out (with myself and others) and a whole bunch of other stuff. I feel that my discernment will become a lot clearer and easier in perhaps another year or so when I have everything sorted. I estimate it might even take a little longer...I'm currently 21 and I feel that 24 will be the cut-off date for me to finally decide (although I've heard it said too many times, it's never too late for priesthood!). Until then all I (and you) can do is just continue to grow and develop. Feed your passion in Christ, stay close with God, keep him a priority and pray...in the words of our savior "tomorrow will take care of itself". Priesthood cannot be rushed and until you know for sure, keep living your life in patience and have faith. Continue with your life, but remember to keep God and your discernment in your heart always.
Oh, and I wouldn't worry about "being accepted". The only one worthy of judging your vocation is God and yourself. If God has called you, He will provide a way, and I'm sure your parish will help you however they can. The only way I can imagine someone not being accepted is if the Church deems them not physically, mentally or spiritually suitable for the job, which they make a good effort to judge based on your profile. But, I'm sure you know they simply do this to make sure that a candidate is actually being called by God and has the burning desire of God's grace inside them.
That's all I got for you man :)