So, I have diagnosed Major Depressive Disorder and a Generalized Anxiety disorder and I am on meds for both. I want to date but I keep having this feeling of guilt that I’m running away from God’s will. I “discerned” religious life for several year in high school and college which included talking to orders. I don’t feel called to religious life, just an overwhelming sense of guilt for not choosing it.
I don’t really want to look into it further because it makes me so anxious. I really want to find peace in not choosing it but it is so hard for me. Now, I’m trying to figure out if this feeling is of God or because everything makes me anxious.
I have been praying for a spouse for years and I feel like God is holding back for some reason. Is this in my head or what? Please help! :eek: