Hello, I am currently discerning a possible vocation (Franciscan/Capuchin, possible Brother). I have been having recurring thoughts in prayer of this vocation, and I have very little desire to date a girl (don't get me wrong-I would enjoy starting a traditional family but I don't know if this if the path God would like me to follow).
One of my goals while still in a secular life (college) is to adopt to the best of my ability the vows of the Order. I am chaste, that is not an issue. Obedience is also fine. But I have always wondered about poverty. I know that there are Orders who beg, and others who make their own living but obviously live with bare essentials.
So, how exactly do you go about living a life in poverty without material possessions? It may sound obvious, but as I give it thought, at least from living in a secular society, what is necessary. For instance, I have clothes. Could I really give them up and just have one set of clothes. Furthermore, I have a computer. I honestly would love to give up my computer, due to my dislike of technology and the internet; yet, I am required to have this for school. I have also acquired many texts, since I love to read and explore a variety of disciplines. These represent some of the primary material objects I posses, and I honestly need them to conform to some extent to what modernity expects of me. How do I go about trying to adopt the vow of poverty? At my house, I do have lots of "material" posessions mainly from traveling; for instance, different items I have acquired over the years from the various places I have explored in my life. Would all of these items be considered material posessions as in the story of the Rich Man in the Gospels (specifically Mark, although I know that it is in other Gospels).
I understand that I am not in an order, and if I were to join, then I would submit all of my possessions or donate everything. But can anyone give advice for giving up things while outside of the Order?
Thanks. May God bless you.